Psychic Reading from My Past

From an email from November 5th, 2004, I found part of an email reading from Shirley Scott (psychic and animal communicator).  I went to see her for an in-person reading (my first), and had some follow up questions.  In place of names of people in my life, I've used an X to protect their identity.  The very first reference she makes has to do with a vision I had concerning a local crime.  Here is her responses to my follow-up questions, post-reading:

Dear Cherri

The following is what I received from your first email. [re question about a vision of a local crime]I have read your second one and feel that even if your visions are correct, you will probably not be taken seriously. Even the best psychics are called on that much to help solve crimes. All you can do is ask your guide for help in either blocking the unwanted and unneeded pictures or to help you understand what is happening at the time you see or sense them. You may need to go to someone more qualified than my self. But we'll see what happens in the next few weeks as you work on closing the portal. [closing a portal or being a portal refers to being a free channel for spirits to use as an entry point between realms]

I feel that your friend is not a portal. But if he were to open, he could be very intuitive. You and him have had several life times together. He is experiencing some soul memories when it comes to political issues because he was in politics in 2 separate life times. One was in Egypt and the other in Africa.

About your other friend, it's sad when we can't move on but this is her choice. She lived for her husband and still is. He is around her and has tired to help her move on but she really doesn't want too. His death was a shock to her and she is still dealing with that. Only she can decide to let go and live a life with someone else or move on. I don't think will happen.

X is an old soul and took on the contract of mental illness this time to experience it and heal some past karma. Most souls that decided to reincarnate with a disease, deformity or other afflictions are very brave souls. They know they can heal a lot of karma and learn many lessons. Don't ever discount anyone on Earth in any body or situation because we really all know what we are doing here.

XY is hurting on the inside and has really no control of herself. She may try to portray control on the outside but here is a Universal rule - Anyone that tires to control anyone else is out of control themselves. When someone finally starts a spiritual path, the first thing they learn is the only thing any of us has control over is our emotions, feelings and choices.

I am being told that you and XXY had a life time where she was your black nanny. This was very hard on her because back them black nannies were in charge to a point but if the children complained, the nanny would be in trouble. This explains why you sometimes feel she is a parent, sometimes a friend and sometimes you are the parent. I feel her husband was someone you really never got to know. He came around your father's house and looked dark and unhappy, even mean. He scared you and you used to hide behind anything you could find. He never talked to you, looked right past you. You didn't like his energy at all in that life time.

The first friend you mentioned - we are all psychic just to different degrees. It's okay to have different beliefs and still be friends - that's what it's all about.

Your other friend is someone from your druid days. She is just remembering more at this time than you are. If you meant some of my friends you might think the same thing. Just remember we are all in this together just at different stages.

I can't say if your son will ever use any of his gifts. I'm hearing the reason he picked you as his mother was because you could let him go. Most parents would have left him or sent him to a home but you did raise him and then let him go so he can go through what he needs too. You aren't a failure and neither is he.

Once you get used to closing your portal and it becomes a habit, you won't even think about it on a daily basis, only when you are getting something. It takes time and practice. You've had it open so long, it will take some time.

[in reference to her reading where she stated that in a previous life I had been a bad sorceress who had "the power of the universe at my disposal and misused it"] Don't feel bad about being a bad sorceress. We all come to Earth School to learn and experience being rich, poor, white, black, tan, yellow, mean, nice, man, woman, child and a million other things. It's a way of healing karma and helping our soul to grow. Be grateful that you have never felt tied to this life. The saying in the Bible is, "Be in this Earth but not of the Earth". That way we don't get attached to the out come of things and it's makes it easier when we are here.

Happiness is a mind set. Change you mind and you change your life. Think happy thoughts, smile at children and animals. Throw kisses to butterflies and hug trees. You have been too serious for too long. Now it's time to bring out your inner child and enjoy life. There is only one way to experience joy - LIVE JOYFULLY!

There was no bad energy around you when I lit the sage. My guide told me to do it so that if anyone came through while we were talking, we would be protected.

Your struggle with religion is because it's man made and you see that on a spiritual level. The information that organized religions give us doesn't really make sense to us. It's only half the Truth. you are holding on to some cell memories about using your power for the dark side and fighting with yourself about that. Ask the White Light of the Christ consciousness surround you and take the cell memory away and it will be done. You only have to believe and know it. Don't try to come to terms with it, just let it go. "Let go and Let God".

Many people feel a heaviness when they first put down a grounding cord. It should go away soon as you get use to it. It's just a safe energy to help your body feel safe. Don't think about it too much, it's only energy.

On the Kabala, I'll get back to you on that.

The Church of Divine Man and Psychic Institute does not have a website or home study because you really need to be present when you are finding out about yourself.

Sometimes when people are as open as you are, it's easier for all spirits to come to you. Some will want to channel through you and others will just want to move through you for no reason. That's why you have to get your portal closed so you won't go crazy.

Hoped this helped. It took me about an hour and a half to do this reading. If you have $60 to mail me, that would be great.

In Love and Light
Shirley

I asked a few more questions, regarding past lives, and how she and I knew each other before in one...some of these Q&A may not make sense out of context, but let me know if you have questions.  My words are the pink and blue, and hers are the red and black.

Where did you and I meet? I know we knew each other someplace. Atlantis

Oh come on, throw me a bone, don't just wet my appetite :-) Can you tell me any more than that? This is so fascinating! You're probably just trying to spare me cuz I killed you in that life or something. I'm not sure, but I know it was there. Had something to do with working together to help better the lives of all the animals on Earth, on land and water. I believe you died in the ocean trying to help a whale.I also occurred to me to ask if you have information about why I seem to have a problem actually being out in nature. There are aspects of it that I KNOW are renewing, that I know could bring me joy, but I am terrified of the idea of snakes, I hate bugs, I don't like to go potty outside...I feel vulnerable outside (well, not in my yard, but like to go camping or "communing with nature"). I bet it is something, somewhere, deep down, I could gain strength and fullfillment from, but I'm sort of afraid to be out in the wild...even with somebody else. And I don't like to be in water that isn't a swimming pool or bathtub. I'm afraid of what's in it. I love the ocean, but can't imagine being out on it, or swimming in it. Does this link to some past thing? Okay then, if I would have read this first, the answer I gave to the first question would have made more sense. There is also another life where you were in a place with lots of snakes and bugs, getting India or in that area. A cobra bit you and you were laying in the hot sun dying and there were bugs crawling on you before you died. This is why you don't feel safe in the outdoors. Look at the first answer about being scared of the water. We need to bring these past life cell memories to present time.Another biggie although it seems small, is I have this really severe problem with my hands (and feet) sweating whenever they are touched. This has been a constant source of embarrassment when in a prayer circle, or shaking/holding hands, and can be an issue when considering a life of touching people through healing work. Where might that have come from and do you have suggestions of how to heal it? It is cell memory from a life of touching people when you touched them in not so nice a way. Tell yourself to let of the past and that your touch is to heal on not to destroy. It is a defense in your system to help you stop from hurting people. Let it go and keep telling yourself that are only doing good now.