Saturday, August 17, 2013
Journey into Pelvic Healing - Part 6
I've had craniosacral work done from the mouth before so I wasn't shocked when my healer decided that this would be the treatment approach for today. In past sessions with other healers and physical therapists, I've had this treatment before...for headaches, and for other body ailments. The head and jaw and hard palate are connected to the skull, and the skull is connected to the spine and well...the knee bone really IS connected to the leg bone as the song goes. It's all connected. I can't explain it any more than that because I haven't been trained in craniosacral therapy. I just trust. Hey it isn't surgery, so go with the flow, I say.
This session was far more comfortable than many of them I've had in the past. Some of them have just plain hurt. She was really gentle and to the lay person, she just seemed to have light pressure on my upper teeth and held for a time. But holy cow, did stuff start moving around in my body...and yes, pelvis. Craniosacral unwinding is hard to explain...it sort of has to be experienced. I think of it like taking a rubber band and twisting it tight, then slowly allowing it to unwind and return to it's relaxed state. Sometimes you don't even know you're twisted tight until someone helps you unwind it.
I also had flash-back memories of being in surgery. The smell of the latex on the glove, and the hand sort of lightly over my nose and something in my mouth made me remember a tube down my throat, and a mask on my face. I'm sure I was "asleep" but there is some level of consciousness during anesthetic that nobody knows for sure about. It wasn't traumatic, it was just there, like a photograph. I just tried to breathe and release it.
After a time she was going to move on to more direct pelvic work but felt called to do the work without touch this time. So she sat at my head and focused her attention. From her perspective, it was very intense for her and she left the room to get some air at one point. She was sending to my abdomen via her abdomen...energetically. She felt it be really swirly in her own abdomen. I was having some imagery/visions and I saw my pelvis/abdomen like a big wagon wheel. Healing energy was emanating to my core and emanating out...to my relatives, to my ancestors, to my past life selves, to multiple planes of existence (or parallel universes, if you will). The energy was flowing out in all directions via the spokes in the wagon wheel.
At one point, in somewhat of a spiritual space, she said something to the effect of "You came in to this incarnation on a white light. That's the highest light and a difficult path." Well, gee...I could have told you it's been a difficult path. "It's the same light that Christ and Buddha and other higher beings come in on. I asked what your purpose in this life was and it is to 'hold the space' for other healers and meditate and send out blessing and healing energy to others. You're like a monk. Direct hands on healing isn't really the best path for you. The life of seclusion that you're living now suits you and fits this path of a monk-like life. Your soul/spirit is HUGE".
Yeah, I know that sounds weird, and when I think about it, or repeat it, it sounds like I'm all that and a bag of chips and it could make a person full of their own importance. I can say that it rang true in ways I can't explain. It felt accurate with my spirit. My ego, however likes to say "but that's not enough...a person in this culture has to DO something to demonstrate their value/worth....doing 'nothing' or nothing demonstrable is 'lazy', less than, not respectable." I mean, how do you explain that? Our culture wants to know "what do you DO?". How do you think people would respond if I say "Oh, I hold the space for the universe and hand out blessings." Um...nope. I sort of wish I had the courage to say that. Instead I usually say "Oh nothing. I'm a housewife."
Plus, even if one comes in with a higher order purpose, one still comes in HUMAN, fallible. My ego also likes to say, "Well, HELL, if I'm so 'higher-order', how come I'm still unkind, judgmental, anxiety-ridden, confused and down-right imperfect?" Cuz...well, I didn't escape the human part. The soul and the ego are two very different gigs. Sometimes I just plain suck. But with effort, and concentration I'm able to connect directly to my spirit and the flow of energy in the cosmos...or God if you like that term better.
The other downside is that having a HUGE spirit/soul/light means that it can be downright uncomfortable living in a skin suit. My body is often quite uncomfortable...like I wish, like a lobster, I could shed the exoskeleton as I outgrew it and make a bigger one. Have you seen those alien-type movies, like Men in Black where the monster alien unzips the human skin it's inhabiting and exits HUGE and monstrous? Well I would exit like a bit white butterfly or bird...or just big light.
Yeah, I'm all that, and a bag of chips alright. Not-so-much. Just finding my way like everyone else. I believe, based on whatever past lives we've led, we have different purposes in each life and we agree to return with a specific contract or purpose. Funny thing about it is, with the birth into human form process, we forget what that is and it takes most of our life to remember it. Seems like a more efficient system could be established. But maybe we need that to grow at the correct rate and to influence and assist others along the way who are all in different places with different purposes and varying degrees of memory about who they really are and how they connect to Source energy.
I know there are many who won't believe a shred of this, and who have very different beliefs. I'm OK with that. We're all in different places on our journeys. This is my truth for me, at this time. I've changed a lot over my lifespan so far, and know I will continue to shift and change.
If all this isn't quite strange enough, tomorrow I'll tell you about how I put my uterus back in.